In Which I Consider a Timeshare on Noah's Ark

The great deluge happened today. Seriously, I have not seen it rain this hard in quite some time. Thankfully, I managed to get my walk in earlier this afternoon during a brief respite from the downpour. Since I was early, I got to actually use the state park, which was lovely. There is a section there which I do not think I will ever understand- a singular tree has a simple wooden fence built around it in a clearing. No signage stands there to indicate what the rangers were on about when they set it up. A single, ordinary tree surrounded by a three foot high fence. It looks like a gathering place for the local druid or wiccan club. I can just imagine the local retirees in my neighborhood going out at midnight to dance naked around the tree. Actually, you know what, I'd much rather not imagine that. Let's pray the geriatric extracurricular past-times don't include religious exploration of that enthusiasm.

I digress. The park was lovely, I wish I'd had more time to hike there, but I had an appointment to train a coworker I needed to keep. I enjoyed more homemade food, questioned my intake of watermelon (I think I have a problem), did my stretches, and all around enjoyed what was essentially a busy but uneventful day. I wish there was something more exciting to share. I spent some time thinking about life, if that's of any interest. You ever experience a passion for something only to find that it was built on a fantasy or a lie? I had something like that in my life, and I've been struggling with getting over it for the last five or six years. I know it turned out to be a fantasy, but it felt so good to believe in something, be so convinced of something. I'm not talking about religion here, I plan to do my best to be respectful of people and their beliefs on this blog, but it was something of great importance to my life. I'm learning to heal, and I'm learning to focus on the things that are real. And yet. And yet. Why did it feel so good to believe in something that wasn't true? And why do I miss it?